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The book isn't reassuring me there's hope for Larie. Having that said, a lot of the documentation feels wrong.

Larie confirms many statements, but even with his confirmation, they don't always add up. For example, he has a tendency to joke around and the fact he's often smiling and "purring" is not discussed anywhere. The things that are being discussed should deny the existence of these behaviours. Parrenflus are supposed to be violent and angry, are they not? He definitely was the first day we met, but so far he's done a fair job not killing anybody. How can that be if they're lethally short-fused? It doesn't help that Larie doesn't explain his feelings when I ask about them, either because he can't or doesn't care to talk about it.

Earlier today I asked him if he felt lonely or worried about possibly being the only parrenflus in existence, but he merely replied we'll bring the numbers back. Like a botched up Adam and Eve. No thanks. It's a strange idea that a self-conscious creature is unable to recognize or describe their own feelings. It's like I'm talking to a machine sometimes, that only knows a few answers and settles with some weird replacement when data is missing. Are his social skills truly this limited? I hope I'm not too late developing them, I'd love someone to have deeper conversations with, and none of the other aliens are giving me this chance.

One thing I am sure about is that Larie doesn't feel angry in my presence. Not enough to become violent. I've denied him many things now, cautiously so, but he stays upbeat. It made me wonder if the parrenflus just irritated each other, but then I remembered the brain experiment and how they're hardwired to feel annoyed, even without given a reason. The book says I should be dead, which is why I question its accuracy. That's no good. It's my only means of learning more about Larie and the way I should approach him, but if half of it consists out of exaggerations, it's useless. I'm afraid to depend on my human social skills. What if I do or say something that'll offend him? This is bound to happen one day, Larie already becomes riled up whenever a resident makes eye-contact. It's something I've avoided doing this entire time. Staring appears to be an invitation to battle.

I asked the library for more books on the parrenflus, but this is the only one that's been written. Apparently it was a challenge to record this species, as anyone who even dared to get near their planet got killed.

In more positive news, Larie shared some of his food with me today. In more negative news, him turning me into a proud omnivore is makes the residents antsy. I'm not planning on eating these aliens anytime soon, I can promise them..

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